I’m really bad at letting people in my life. REALLY bad. It takes A LOT for me to trust someone. It takes A LONG time. It usually takes trial and effort.
I run from kindness offered to me openly usually. I question motives. I fear rejection.
So I push. So I pull. So I hide. So I run away.
I make it difficult. I make it hard. I’m sorry.
I could try to explain why I do this time and time again. I could make an effort to give reasons from my past, trauma, emotional hurts and pains – but I won’t. All you need to know is that I’m a work in progress. I’m broken like everyone else, and I’m sorry if I hurt you.
I’m sorry. That my pain caused you pain.